Wednesday, July 27, 2016

The Struggle is REAL

So, it's been wayyyyy toooo long since I've made a post. I've been struggling the last year and have gained 75 lbs back of my 150 lbs that I lost when I first started my journey. I get on a short kick do well for a few days and then fall off... Wayyy off! It's been really hard to face the music and at times I've been in denial.

Pictures don't lie and all the clothes that use to fit, that now don't are a clear sign that I have to make a change. But..... How do I do it?

The problem is, I didn't know how to deal with the stress that I had going on in my life and reverted back to my old ways of binge eating. Devastatingly, it has engulfed my life and not sure what to do at this point in time. I don't want to go back to my old life, yet I can't seem to find the will power that I had when I first started out.. So need to find something to substitute this bad behavior when this situation comes around again.

Loosing weight isn't the hard part, it's maintaining. Finding that balance and keeping it strong and steady. So, now I am back at a point where I need to take control again. Yes, I've done it before and it's so easy to say you can do it again, but finding that will to do it all over again has been the hardest thing.

There's so many reasons why I need to get back to that lifestyle, and I know what I need to do. It's time I face reality and take the plunge. yes, I can and will fail at times, but the important thing is to not let a little setback highly impact my end goal. I want to be fit and healthy again. I want to not have to talk myself into working out or choosing to eat healthy, I want it to come automatically like it use to be. It's going to take time, but I will get there again. Just have to trust the process.

Starting from the bottom and working my way back up again.......

So here it is Day 1 256.8 lbs. Took this pic on July 24th, 2016
I'm also going to take measurements as well

Hoping to be able to drop about 40 - 60 lbs by Christmas..... It's going to be super hard, but I want this I want to get back down to 175 lbs. (Why did I think that wasn't good enough back them?!)

So here's to starting over and learning to love that healthy lifestyle again.